It’s not easy being me, ten years, two month and six days of misery. I don’t know if I could ever update this blog again as my parents deem that if you aren’t making money using the computer you shouldn’t be using it and thus my CPU got kicked and dented by my father with my mother encouraging him to do so. I tried, I always tried so hard to please them but I couldn’t make them happy with whatever I do. Have your existence been question by the one who forced you to exist? Have you been insulted and hurt by those who are supposed to encourage and care? It’s comical that your limit of endurance is increase every time you felt you are breaking down. And if you are still wondering why my parents did allows me to buy that Scott, it’s because I done better than Terence Soh, and not my results are good, Perhaps time and money could heals. Deprivation perhaps thus makes me such a person. I know I ain’t good in academic wise as compare to my cousins who are in Cambridge, RJC, Hwa Zhong, VJC, nor any shit near there. Thus the pressure is there, I tried, I tried to make them proud but they would just turn their head in disapproval as I didn’t went for the 74th Cadet Inspector Course like my cousin thus I am labeled as a weakling, so much so for NPCC I admit I lose to you all dammit I hate NPCC, SSGT is crap I talked my way up, happy now? How I wish I wasn’t there to take the blame of everything I feel the pain in my soul every time the sky turns dark. Hopes things turn out alright.