Tonight I’m having the same anxiety as usual
Should I or should I not buy it?
I am contemplating over and over again,
Contemplating on the worst case scenarios

Perhaps I just couldn’t justify buying things
How come you guys are able to sleep so soundly every night?

I had spent so much on luxury, before I know how to earn them.
Fx-7, Motorola E6, Comp 3.0, Scott scale 80, Asus F8sn, the list just go on and on
Can I buy the 450D without regrets?
No
Do I deserve what I am getting?
No

Until now I had only earn a miserable 75 buck using my own effort.
It’s such a small amount as compared to the rest.

Had I ever work for something I wants?
Never,
I am regretting it now.
For the luxury I am getting,
I am going to work hard for it.

it's easier said than done.